Oh Fooey

Since my last post my mental health has been in a real crummy state. I've been rapidly losing motivation and experiencing apathy towards far too many normal parts of life - from paying bills to putting away laundry. My wife says that its because I'm not transitioning and I'm depressed. I told her that, while that is possible, that doesn't seem internally to be the issue.

Last night I spent some time alone, unwinding, and listening to music. I got plenty of sleep and I feel much better this morning. I am hoping that I am out of my funk and that I can get back to the serious work of living happily. One thing I still need to do is get into a regular exercise routine and clean up my poor diet.  Just to give you a sense of the carnage - I ate pizza, hot dogs, cookies, and two bowls of ice cream yesterday. That's no way to get super hot - especially since I didn't work out.

I'm not sure that I'm ready to turn it into over drive yet, but I'm hoping that I can refocus my mind and start to get on track, if only slowly. Maybe I will actually work out today or tomorrow, even if I still eat like a 400 pound man.

Kate

Excercise, At Last

I haven't followed my own good advice about diet and exercise since I posted it, but I am proud to report that today I finally got around to consciously exercising. It wasn't much - just 20 minutes of total body workout to an exercise video, but I did it and I got sweaty. In fact, my sweaty arm is sticking to the computer desk as I type this post. I can feel a sense of accomplishment at having exercised today, but I need to do it again tomorrow to keep this positive feeling. Building a little everyday toward my dream physical and emotional state is my ultimate purpose here.

On an unrelated note, Oprah had a great show on yesterday about the show Modern Family on ABC, which also featured a transsexual woman named Christina and her wife. Christina was a wonderful t-girl role model. She realized about 30 that she wanted to be a girl, so she set about transforming her thoroughly masculine life completely. The results were quite stunning; she is really a very beautiful and passable woman. More interestingly to me, though, she found a beautiful female partner and they had twins, using Christina's stored sperm. Christiana even breast feed the babies, after following a specialized regime of hormones. She said that she felt she had almost been too lucky, getting everything she wanted in life. That kind of story can really make a tgirl jealous!

Well, hopefully I can report more good health news in my next post. Until then, cheers!

~Kate

Zooey Happy

My diet has not exactly been going well, but that's a story for another post. Today, I would like to focus on my inspiration in this world - Zooey DeSchannel. I just think she is wonderful and aspire to be like her. She's talented and beautiful and so fun loving and happy. She appears on this month's cover of Self Magazine, as pictured below.